Leaving 2012 behind

It had been a hectic end of month for myself. During my last semester in NUS (August to December), I had been preparing and going for job interviews, hoping to land a decent or dream job before I officially graduate. Even during examinations period, I was called for interviews. Effort was paid off and I got my very first job!
Just before the day I fly to HongKong for a holiday, I signed the contract. Staying 6 days in HongKong and 2 days in Macau was more of sight seeing and tasting the food of the land and culture. I realized I am particularly interested in historical sights and sight-seeing, and sand and beaches if they have for a holiday. It had been rather tiring walking around cities. I prefer to enjoy nature at different parts of the world. This shall be my next trip.

After I came back from HK, I have to settle various stuff and that includes gaming! Ok, I know I won’t have the time to play when I start work on 2nd Jan 2013, but this is still my interest. Anyway, come to think of it, everything was in a rush for me. School, exams, job interviews, holiday, etc…

I just want to say I forgotten about 2012, I couldn’t remember the milestones of 2012 but thankfully to Facebook, they gave a review based on what I posted.
I think the good thing about me is, I can easily let go of the past. But that is easy unless I have something to look forward to.

I just want to say that, I am grateful for the education I received thus far and I am leaving all my old learning habits and methods behind. Once I start work, that would be a new set of education I will be receiving. When I am married and have kids, that’s another education for myself. When I “retire” and become old, that is another education for me.

Whatever lousy events that happened in 2012, it will be gone, they become stepping stones for life. For the enjoyable and loving events in 2012, they become the reminders of what I am fighting and holding on for 2013.

That said, neutralizing the past and expectations for the future, remember to experiment and try new things in life!


2012 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 2,100 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 4 years to get that many views.

Click here to see the complete report.

New directions

Sometimes, life can be better when you leave it to nature to run its course. There is nothing to regret about if you have made the best effort hoping for the best result but in the end, you didn’t get the best outcome.

You thought you know what you really want in life until… a closed window shuts at your face.. then you realized, “ah, that window is so small and inappropriate for me to pass through..” and then you start thinking the difference between windows of opportunities and doors of destiny…

A delay is not a denial, closed windows of opportunities aren’t as devastating as it seems.. because every rejection is a new direction…

In life, we have to meet with “accidents” or slam “against the walls” before we wake up to our unrealistic or unsound stupor. It is easy to say we are independent of what others say, but in reality, we may be quietly and unknowingly molding into what others think is right or the best.

So turn around and see for yourselves, that closed windows of opportunities do open doors of destiny, and finally correct your own course of life.

Nature: Windows of Opportunities

A thought came to me this morning, associating the pursuit of opportunity and rain.

I woke up at 7am, woken up by my handphone’s alarm. I intended to do a morning run and thought it would be okay to surf around the Internet till 8am, have my breakfast and run at 9am-ish.

The weather looked good through out my initial waking hours. When I was about to leave home, I realized the skies were grey. I had high hopes that I would be able to make my morning run happen before the rain starts. In fact, it didn’t looked like it is going to rain any moment sooner.

Walked a short distance from my home to the usual lake I run at and felt droplets of rain. (DAMN!)

I remained optimistic and continue my faith-walk to the lake. Within crossing-the-road’s distance to the lake, I decided to back out and walked back. While walking back, I was disappointed, a little angry with the skies. But I convinced myself that I could do the run in the evening instead. When I reached home, it poured like it was mocking at my failed attempt for a morning run! (DAMN x2)

Life lessons connection:

1. Identify opportunities early and ACT on it! Do not procrastinate! Life is as exciting as unpredictable it can be. Enjoy life, enjoy unpredictability and contingencies.

2. Know when to stop pursuing a specific window of opportunity. Do not cross the no-return line just for that opportunity unless it’s a life and death situation. It is precisely a window, it is not meant to be taken last minutely and cost you overly dearly. So, aim very high but when you miss an opportunity, your vision or goals are still above the majority.

3. Be versatile and identify patterns of opportunities knocking in your life. Make it a point to plan escape routes. I took another route to University (plus my determination to get a scholarship), it takes stamina, vision and down-to-earth hard work. And more importantly, PATIENCE. We all have to pass through time, so make time your best friend and savor every moment even if it’s uncomfortable. I often tell myself to enjoy difficult moments in life, because I do not want to miss the lessons to be learned. (Unless I am being tortured forcefully, things will be different) :p

4. Enjoy detours, you might soak up new lessons, skills or meet new people when you have to make a detour. 

5. Have fun conducting life-experiments. Take it easy, people wouldn’t remember your embarrassing moments for long, trust me. It is often ourselves who judged ourselves too harshly. (Unless you committed a hideous crime) 

That said, I leave you with a quote I thought of:

“If life pours on you, consider it a free shower to get you clean-up for the next phase of life.”

When life pours on you...

Expectation management 101

There are 3 life lessons in my life which thought me about expectation management.

True, it is important to have great expectations and vision but we must also manage expectations. It is an art of dying to self or to fleshy ambition.

Expectation management #1: “You just got to die to people’s expectations and start living your own. What belongs to you will rightfully be yours.”

When I first got into University 3 years ago, I was filled with expectations thinking I could do well academically. To my horror, it was difficult. I realized I am not that bright after all.

My scholarship was suspended twice. I realized I must manage my expectations. “Heck with the scholarship, let me have fun learning” I like what my World History lecturer/tutor said to us, “Do not worry about your assignment grades and critique, you are here to learn, not to succeed.” That sentence lived with me and I began seeing the greater mission of education, it is NOT just an academic exercise or a chance to show how good you are with getting good grades. It’s about preparing you in the society and work force. Please, FAIL big time or at least try to learn valuable lessons in school. If you were to fail in your workplace, it could cost you MORE than grades alone.

Alright, I got my scholarship back when I threw the weight of my scholarship hopes. Sound contradicting but when I lose it, I gained it back.

Expectation management #2: “You will never be 100% ready anyways, so just go for it. Do not expect much on your current abilities or situation but expect much from trying and not wavering.”

In the beginning of 2012, I was concerned about my career in future. I will graduate in 2013 and I have all these pressure and expectations to get a good job. One of the first step towards my target is to get an internship opportunity with a reputable company and see what employment chances would I be offered.

I must be grateful to my University’s career centre for presenting its students with great opportunities to work in reputable companies. In the beginning of January 2012, banks were looking for interns. The usual me would say, “Ah, I am not good enough, I am not good at this, I am not too good at that.” After realizing that I will NEVER be 100% ready, let’s try it. No harm to try right?

I applied for Credit Suisse (CS) and Deutsche Bank’s IT internship programme. First round of elimination: Online assessment test. Heck with it, just go for it first. And guess what? I think I did okay for Linguistic test but I think I randomly picked answers for the Numerical test. I really suck at calculating numbers. Why lie to myself or to any potential employer?

I received an email few days later telling me that Credit Suisse will not process my application further. Okay, I knew it. I am not bright enough.

But, 10 minutes later I received a call and an email at 9pm! Wow, these good people work till wee hours huh?

I was told I was selected to have a phone interview with one of the CS IT managers. Alright, was happy but I didn’t expect much nor did I prepare much because I think I am going to fail the interview.

After the weekend, I received an expected call on a Monday night. I excused myself from my night class and begun talking to the interviewer. Everything was fine until the Interviewer asked me a question which I knew it will be asked BUT I did not bother about preparing for it. “Why would you want to join Credit Suisse?” I know, you can smack me for not preparing for such a common question. My answer seem impossibly perfect: “I want to be honest, Credit Suisse is a reputable and prestigious company. I want to feel proud and knowing when I speak to my clients, I can be sure I speak of credibility. Knowing I belong to Credit Suisse gives me the confidence to perform and delight my clients.”

I once read that we shouldn’t say we want to join the company because of its prestige. I guess I went to contrarian route. But I speak the truth! If I am proud of my company, wouldn’t I be motivated and feel the sense of belonging to perform better?

Okay, I thought I screwed up my phone interview. Never expected that I would get through to the group interview.

Yes, I still think I was lucky. I didn’t expect much from the group interview. I told myself, “These people are brighter than me, but I will still be myself and not try too hard to impress.” Goodness, I think I performed well in the group interview. I saved the presentation last minutely because someone else took more points than previously agreed upon (Which I think was quite irresponsible!) In order not to make things difficult for the rest of the presenters in my group, I reiterated some previous  points but “value-add” into it. I was impressed myself. And I guess I impressed the group interviewers as one of them just gave an impossible gesture of saying, “I can’t imagine someone could come up with these perspectives!”

Now now, I begin to expect I will have greater probability of getting the internship. Yes, I got through to the last round and I am well prepared. I looked through my past lecture notes and asked myself what motivates me to pursue IT as a passion.

The day came and I spoke like a river but I am STILL myself. Not trying too hard to impress. I even told my interviewer that I admit I am a little dated with my software development skills.

Just last week, I signed the contract and I am all excited. I hope I can perform well but most importantly, be true to myself, never make yourself miserable trying too hard to impress. It’s good to be driven, but don’t be a slave to overly idealistic fantasies.

Expectation management #3: Do not despise the small, remember the chilli padi.  (A random quote but I can’t think of any better)

On 17th Feb 2012, it was our University’s Student Achievements Award night at the University of Cultural Centre. My one year old project of helping the special needs in school was graciously nominated under the Community Projects category. Seriously, I don’t think my group will win anything. Of course, it was already a win when we were nominated.

I did not dressed up in formal but wore a smart casual good enough in my opinion to attend the ceremony. (Well, I never expect I would go up on stage anyways!)

My group were delighted to win a merit award with a trophy and a certificate for our efforts in helping the special needs students in school. Seriously, our name was the first to be called out in the category and all of us were shocked. The award inspired me to do greater things with our initiative and I had been thinking our next move.

What I realized was, all group nominees were large and reputable student bodies and clubs. Our group? 4 person team. The smallest group among all group nominees. I am so proud of my group because an idea to help the physically challenged became an official project adopted by the Office of Student Affairs. With official support, we can do more for the special needs and my motivation is to help NUS be a more inclusive and conducive environment for students with special needs.

Remember the chilli padi, it may be as small as my group relative to all big community service groups in school, but we still can make an impact!